Last night an employee from the residential treatment hospital called because Evan wanted to speak with us. I held the line waiting for the call to be transferred to him. When Everett told him I was on the line, with excitement in his voice he sang “Mommy!” I was shocked. He has never called me this before. When he got on the phone I asked him what he had said. He said “Everett told me you were on the phone and I said Mommy.” So I hadn’t misheard him. I quickly changed the subject because I was a bit uncomfortable. I started feeling guilty like I was betraying Eliza in some way.
I knew that Eliza would not like him calling me this. I can’t say that I blame her. During our conversation I let him know that his mom loved him and asked if he wanted me to relay any messages to her. He wanted me to tell her that he loved and missed her. He also asked how she was doing and I assured him that she was fine.
Even though I did not initiate the term of endearment, she would never believe it. She would assume that I told him or better yet, made him call me mommy. Though I really think it was a fluke or a slip of the tongue on his part. However, last year in a fit of emotion he did tell me that he wished I could be his mom. Evan is just so needy right now. He needs a mother. I guess I am the next best thing since Eliza is not available.